We don’t have our tree yet. We were supposed to go on Saturday with the JFW to cut one down, but it looks like it’s not going to happen. Instead, we’ll have to do the traditional trip to the grocery store.
I love the smell of a fresh tree. And the needles aren’t THAT big of a deal. They vacuum up easily enough.
So, we don’t have our tree and I haven’t pulled out any other decorations either. I’m just not in the mood. My house is a mess and I don’t feel like doing anything about that either. It’s weird. I feel…nothing. Not happy. Not sad. Nor filled with excited anticipation like I usually do at this time of year.
Maybe it’s the no tree thing. I know Christmas trees are pagan and commercialized, but I love ’em. The twinkling lights make me feel all warm and happy inside.
You know what, though? I’ve been feeling this way for awhile now. Back in November this bla feeling folded itself around me and hasn’t let go. Don’t get me wrong. I do have periods of happiness. I recently went for coffee with Dawn and Joy. I had fun then. Lots of fun, in fact. I went to my friend G’s house for a jewelery party this past Saturday. That was fun. And she did reflexology on my hands which felt divine. Another day, I took the kids sledding, and then Dawn’s kids ended up coming along which meant I was freed up to hang out at her house and drink hot chocolate rather stand out in the cold. I enjoyed that time chatting and laughing. Watching Dawn put out her winter decorations. I started to feel a little in the spirit that day.
Hmmm. I’m seeing a pattern. Everytime I’m happy I’m with friends. Maybe I’m just lonely. I need to make more playdates…for myself!
I saw this card while I was searching Google for an image to fit my mood.
So, I dedicate this to my friends. Thank-you. 🙂