Since I’ve been documenting my weight loss journey on here, I’ve been aware that it sounds silly when I write something like, “Whoo hoo, I’ve lost 1.6 lbs”. Or, “Poor me, I’ve gained 0.8 lbs”. POINT 8? Come on. I probably just needed to pee that day, right? These “point” somethings of a pound are a little over the top. They can turn an already obsessive mind like mine more obsessive. Not to mention that the scale is an imprecise way of measuring the changes I want to have happen with my body. BUT. This changing the way I eat and treat food isn’t always so easy.
Each time I choose not to have a second helping of supper when that chicken curry with rice smells sooooo good, or not to chow down on freshly baked banana chocolate chip muffins it is a small victory. When I have foam instead of whip on my skinny mocha or have a mini bag of no cal/no taste popcorn instead of my previous usual large bowl of buttery popcorn goodness I feel that I’ve earned every small increment of a pound lost. Don’t get me wrong, I’m keeping a pretty positive attitude. I no longer miss the whip on my mocha. I use spray fat free butter on my popcorn and it’s actually pretty good. Last week, I had decided to have seconds at dinner and whoa was I full. Still, these changes are -well – changes. And I find change tough!
This week, though, I’m enjoying a real and tangible result. I’m fitting a smaller size of clothing! Yippee!! Without telling you my weight (because I’m not that crazy) I will say that I have roughly sixty pounds to lose. Actually, fifty now! 😀 I’ve had this same weight to lose for years, and I’ve been the same size (which I also won’t divulge) for just as long. In the last year or so, though, I gained an additional ten pounds which caused me to go up a size. And now. Now, I’m back down. It just feels good to put on clothes that, not long ago, were too snug.
Soon enough these clothes will be too loose as well. But today, in this moment, I’m just going to enjoy how much better I feel now. A bit lighter, a little more energized, and on my way to being free.